Friday, October 21, 2011

October 21st - The first thoughts.

Gemini horoscope (from regional newspaper): Return calls, but don't forget to follow through on your to-do list. Open up conversations, knowing what could happen if you and others make assumptions. Tonight: Out and about.

Now, I have read this version of horoscopes since I moved to this lovely rural town. It has given me something to ponder about as I begin my work days. I have wanted to put my thoughts into words for a while, but I just have not found the opportunity to do so. So today begins my quest to really put into words my thoughts on my horoscopes.

I am the first person to let you know that I do not believe in fate, destiny, or predestination. Horoscopes do not tell the future. Horoscopes do not dictate my life. However, they tend to really have some insight that hits the nail on the head. Is this because everyone has similar issues in their lives that a vague statement of advice can really attend to it? Is it because people born in a specific time frame have similar lives? I do not know. But I do know that my interpretation of what I read means the most to me. And that is what is important.

Interpretation: Yesterday I was contacted by a friend from graduate school who has a very out-of-sight--out-of-mind mentality. Because of this, our friendship has been pretty non-existent for the last six months. Of course, she wanted to chat and catch up, so I obliged. I asked her what time she wanted to chat, and she said 9 pm. So I made sure my schedule was open at 9 pm to accommodate her phone call. I messaged her at 9 pm, and she messaged me back that she was at Applebee's because she had not eaten dinner yet. Really? I was so frustrated because it was a relegation back to old patterns. No prior communication that she was not able to follow through. No consideration that I was trying to work around the time she set. Last night, at 9:30 pm, I was about to write her off again. Later that night, she messaged me because I started putting up walls and she reinforced that she wanted to catch up. I did not respond.

The horoscope today made me reflect on that situation. Should I or should I not respond to her last message? So I did. But not in a way to reorganize my life to allow for her call. I have work to do, and I need to make sure I attend to it. The stars made that very clear.

I am not exactly sure how I should interpret the part about conversations and assumptions. This could apply in so many places of my life. Work, future planning, friends, romantic interests, just to name a few. Right now I am pursuing further graduate education but I have not really informed my work. My work is pretty run of the mill currently. I think it's best to avoid actively involving myself in these conversations and wait to see what comes up.

Out and about. Hmm... this is such a small rural town that going out and about really means little. But I'll try.

So what does this interpretation really mean? Well, I suppose it means that I need to be authentic with my relationships and open. Sometimes other people have different expectations, and I cannot assume that my expectations align with theirs. This is easier to analyze than to enact into action. But I guess I have to try. Ultimately, if I don't and there are adverse outcomes, it was my choice to be inactive.

But do I want to be active and still have adverse outcomes?

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